Georgia Tech, Atlanta, Georgia, US

First day of class, :)

Looking good as always LOL...

Still got loads of stuff to get done

Hmm... prolly the last post for this blog :)

hope you readers had fun

Vik

*Jack's Mannequin - So lonely for her*

US

KL - Hong Kong - Chicago - Atlanta

Hong Kong

Yeah baby, they speak cantonese to me.

i went beep beep at all the metal detectors, lol.. i m throwing my belt away. Unnecessary attention, feel so much like a terrorist.

on the floor using the power point to charge my laptop.

Going now :P, get back to flying with Jessey

Before

My shoe rang on stage and i was later the only person in graduation with no shoes :P

haha..

Vik

S.P? sungai petani? sutu poking or sambal poisoning?

Kerana mulut badan biasa... i mean binasa

series of FORSEEN events... tat were ignored because of "passion"

lemme literally illustrate,

please read pictures from bottom to top and text from top to bottom, thank you... *was inspired by the malaysia traffic system and current condition of mind*

"Picto-gram"

First word



Second and Third Word...

Visa Lisa

Took my visa today.. lol.. Public transport then jessey's dad sent me home hilarious train ride. Mainly because a 2 year old kid tried to grab my ass with a cheeky expression but the mom managed to stop him, then him, his aunt, grandma and mum all started laughing at him or me..not sure.. lol. A PRODIGY!!! sadly nothing to be proud of lol..


erm... if i ever came up with a new underwear designs for men it would probably be something like this :

LOL.. many dilemas though even though i managed to get my visa.

my history project i think i finished but theres a test for music tomorrow and i ll only be studying tomorrow morning cause i just got back... and i m pretty tired.

Life's hard at times... but i guess i m not giving up just yet...

My sister will be coming back and i ll be leaving in about a month. Don't want to talk about leaving though haha..time flies anyways so we all be fine.

:) meeting my favorite cousins tomorrow small fart farts..miss them. LOL... they remind me of whats really important in life.

i thank God for whatever i have now...

"What's worth living for is worth dying for"

Have you ...

Ever wonder why you do the things you do, the way you do it?

Ever wonder why things seem very real when you least expect it?

Ever stop to think whether the next move you make is one you ll regret?

Ever felt like a part of you is lost?

Ever had a heart to remember? to hold on to when things are at its worse?

Everyone takes things for granted for sometime, its okay if your senses fall asleep for awhile its only human...

Just hope that anyone out there isn't throwing away their "somethings"... i pray,i wont do that.

come go

People come, people go then they COME BACK!!!

welcome back :)

Vik

Can me make this something good?

Things dont turn out the way, i want it to be most of time... i m sorry for that but i try everyday

so i hope...

Congratulations...

Jessey, oi...see you in Georgia Tech

hahaha...

Vik

ROAR

about time

It seems like

So you pushed our love aside
All of our moments together
So you did all of this hurting
For something so unfair

It seems like
i ve got nothing
no,not even your love
its seems like
you are running away
you are running away

from the truth
in our hearts
and all the love i can offer
i cant promise you, i ll always love you
but i can promise you, i wont let you down
if you do, but

it seems like
i ve got nothing
i ve got nothing at all (echo)
it seems like
i ve got nothing
no,not even your love

oh baby, please tell me
i m wrong
please tell you love me
and let the past forgive itself
you see the truth in the end
is love as itself
not just anything in this world

Current Situation

Free time with no job...

Eating patterns back to normal hehehe,

what else huh?

Sleeping in Mr.Leong's class and diggin music class.

Taking time easy, lol...

Night night...

* So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me*

Have a nice day

Dig

We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify. Look me in the eye,
and ask for forgiveness.
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.

So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
Sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness
that cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.
We all have someone that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.

So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.
If I turn into another,
dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song!
Remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.
Oh, each other when everything else is gone.

As it is

Sometimes it's a lot easier seeing things as they are from far... the outside.

it wont be fair but it is easier

just let go of what you can and let things be, take a breather.... and continue moving.

whatever comes comes.

Another square one?

College again tomorrow...

No idea what i should feel like. Pretty much confused.

Last semester here.

Vik

hmm.. video converting

finally managed to convert MOV files to something youtube supports with the freeware converter i got from download.com but the movie was converted upside down. So yup.. neck ache.However, fixed that already. I converted a performance i was in for a wedding dinner for experimental purposes.

All for you

You tell me i dont understand
Called you up to put you to sleep
I guessed you d be tired
so I spoke so softly
wanting to cause ease
I spoke mindfully,myself last
Thats where i was...last
Somehow you werent listening
You said things that
i broke at...

I cant stop the falling pieces
this cage hanging from my chest
Cant be just the decor
Maybe i dont understand you
dont understand myself
All for you, all this while

...

hi its me again >_<"

I was looking for the "musical madness" video.. Well De Abangs did perform. So i googled and found a few sites.. Non mentioned us... but never mind . Most of them only recorded themselves or their friends one. Okay still never mind.. YAY!!! Managed to find one with the whole.. thing.. ~= 250mb so yeah...after blistering trials due to many reasons(router being turned off, browser having problems)

So today in the morning, i managed to download it thanks to the very "reliable" tmnut. So yeap yeap... what else does one do. watch it la.. Guess what?

...

We werent in it...everyone else except us argh... *DELETE FILE... They even recorded their practice sessions and they left us out? sigh.. lol..elmo says because their band performed before us . Still cannot wait 10 mins? they took everyone else didnt they? lol anyways.. thanks guys for recording the others at least. :)

Vik

PS - Raihan is on the way maran, pahang. :( i m feeling sleepy, maybe not.

Not So Innocent - The Landlord

Must watch

CLICK CLICK CLICK or LICK LICK LICK

Satisfaction Guaranteed :)

Teaser ( Note: Watch Clip First then Teaser ) - AKA Post Teaser

"Hey don't call me bitch, i'm a grown man"

" I-put-you-on-the-streets" * so cute.. lol

"I m gonna smack you" ... go gal go

"I WANT MY MONEY!!!"

"Can i have four beers?" ... >_<"

"I m just buzzed" * now, i m too...

Vik

Winter Semester 2007 Wrap

A few more days till the end of the semester. Saw something weird last night a group of ppl all in black accept one guy (with white pants) in the middle of the field from 11.00 pm to 1.00 am. I was walking to David's house to study(which we did very little due to ahem ahem a lil game called throwing-your pubic hair/hair of unknown origin. So yeah..came back... with victor next to me dont ask how. I asked him "eh, what are those ppl doing?" ... He said "what ppl? you seeing things?"

Tried convincing him trying different angles.. hahaha... still he couldnt see >_<" *freaking out* ...
went to get another pair of eyes from cyn's place...a new tenant there ( PALA DUH... he stays there now, the room is his store). Phewww... he saw them... >_<", :) hehe... NOT SEEING THINGS. Hmm wonder wat they were doing???

Will find out today? STAYED TUNED :P

Vik

PS - Finding rooms now.. if not will have to travel back and forth... Ouch.

Vik

PS - WISHING ALL BLOG READERS WELL

'' Memories''

A poem courtesy of Luna , edited by myself

I never thought it would end up this way

Now I'm here, all alone
Stuck in this place, what I should call home

it's freezing outside and i ve got no place to go
No mather how many people surround me,
My heart feels like it has a hole

I barely can imagine that you ain't here
Now life doesn't feel the same
We used to hang out every day
and now I gotta hear we aint, anymore

What started from nothing became so much more
You were the one I trusted through these years
Thanks to you I discovered life again
It is you who made me smile after a time of pain

The places we went,
The songs u wrote for me,
are griffed into my memory
You were my shoulders to cry on,
Made me drop my fears,
I wont forget you easily

The poems u wrote,
I carry in my heart
No matter how big the distance,
you 'll stay in my heart

I would do everything to bring you back
Cant believe you packed your bags without saying goodbye
Thought we were friend
Thought we were one
But now it's clear we're nothing but broken

A need to write...

Its been a tiring week, i have been falling asleep when i least expect. anyways finals are next week and need to start revising.

I have also been wanting to blog more than i have been doing lately(all those posts titles and just another few words to go with them). Yeah, prolly have been really stressed.

Anyways,:) three cheers for Miss America 1944

Rock On!!!

Oh yeah, just performed in college the other day. "Musical Madness"... nothing to say about it

Leg ... aaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwww ouch

My leg hurts... taking celebrax >_<"

Vik

Phone here, Charger there

Phone off...

waiting for back up plan to initiate.

Vik

Run, Don't Stop

Screaming my lungs out
Gasping for breath
Till i wear out
Run run run, till you run out
Till the wind blows your fire out
Still i cant seem to stop

This voice inside teasing
Don't stop,
Don't stop,
Pant you'll
Hurt you'll
Realize you'll
The streets empty
What you lost, you left inside
Stop.

Chinky drunk dude on bed

5.38 am going to sleep..still got two more subheadings to do for my eng102 today...

zzz sleeping now :)

vik

PS - drunk dude.. aint making any sense and caressing me..

Miss U

Here i am alone in the dark,
I'm picturing my life without you,
It's all so empty
I m missing you
I m missing you

We have seen our share of laughter and tears
We have seen some of our deepest fears

Your my red lily, i hope you know
My love for you always will be red,
When your days burn, You can count me to give you shade
When rain falls, We walk through em' together

Together we cry, Together we try
Not to hurt each other, i hope
Cause someday, it ll mean something ;)
I ll remember, You and me together.

Vik

Ms. Thye, I wrote this for you. A lil missin' you. Hope you like it

Non-existent

New songs heard - 0
New songs composed - 0
New songs learned - 0
Blog visits -0
Blog Posts in two weeks - 0
Money in pocket - 0
Regrets - 0


Bags Lost/ Forgotten - 1
Injuries - 10
People telling me i m a screw up - 2131282149
Spirit - Non-existent

Nothing last forever

Most of us don't appreciate what we have till its gone...

Hope you dont do that

The Rainbow After A Storm

I m being a kid lately.. i dont blame myself though, or anyone for that matter. I apologize though for whatever damage i have unintentionally cause.

Here's a song... i recorded...

So what happened to that smile on your face
Mine's on, and its contagious
So why aren't you infected by it
The clouds are waiting to let
The sun smile on you...

You ve got me to catch you when you fall
So let yourself go,
Watch your heart skip a beat or two
You ve got me
You ve got me
We have got us today

Look inside and you ll see
what you never thought was possible

So what happened to that smile on your grace
It's no where near
And i think i miss it

I m waiting for that rainbow of feelings
that you are hiding from me now
I m waiting for that taunting spark
that makes me go wild

Don't you worry
Everything's gonna be alright
Don't you worry
Everything will be fine
Don't you feel sorry
for what you cant touch

Yours sincerely,
Vik The Dick Kid

Ideas for a movie?

"The Outing Planner"

Staring

01.Simitha
02.Karthini ( reality tv show winner,"i bet you cant feel me in" )
03.Farah (she ll be coming around the mountain when she comes)
04.Shalini (from britney's oops i ate the speakers again and Lost!!! but now i m in Nilai which isnt different either)
05.Anand ( the devils madvocate): still on the way
06.Sena
07.Pala
08.Prajesh
09.Kong
10.Suthan ( I know what you did last "prajesh's house")
11.Thavin
12.Vikneshan
13.Kuhan

Possible drivers?

Hmm...
Shal? lol no..
hmm..
Pala? his mum might have a thing or two to say
Prajesh?
Kong? Maybe maybe
Thavin? Maybe
Sena

and ladies and gentleman (just like how mr.thava's says it) .. we are screwed. Why?

A scene in the movie

Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says:
so u in tomorow?
duno
wanna watch movie?
_____________________________________
shalini says:
yeah, i want
bt cant
cz goin bk 2mr
_____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says:
wth..
shal...
go back someother day

Skip to muah loo...

shalini says:
oiii
_____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says:
if she goes back later than tomorrow
so how pala?
how to solve?
i have one idea
_____________________________________
shalini says:
ur embarrassin me
_____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says:
..
_____________________________________
kart~~ カチニ says:
hahaha
_____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says:
>_<"
_____________________________________
Ňŏ$4ä2_ŘẽǺp3r-G @ [MP] ReApEr-G says:
luggage?

Else where in a dark alley in the back of club Jay bee Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says: can u drive tomorrw?
_____________________________________
₪εH53J4RP^ҳ JesH is feeelin Betta! ҳ^PR4J35Hз₪ says:
may be if can..u try takin out the car
_____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says:
my mum working nights..

back to the main event, betrayal (ooo... this should be a movie, all the chicks will watch it) shalini says: ill hang wt u guys some oth time k _____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says: >_<"
_____________________________________
shalini says: oiiiii
_____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says:
sure when we are in us
US*
_____________________________________
shalini says: where got all the time!!!!!!!
_____________________________________
kart~~ カチニ says: yeah la always like this =D _____________________________________
Ňŏ$4ä2_ŘẽǺp3r-G @ [MP] ReApEr-G says:
dude she'll hang out some other timee
_____________________________________
shalini says: oiiii
_____________________________________
Vik Nes Han (Happy CNY!!! ) says :
>_<" ok
_____________________________________
shalini says: where got!!!!!!

The end

shalini says: next time la,ill c movie wt u guys k _____________________________________
shalini says: really!!!!!!!
_____________________________________
kart~~ カチニ says:
thats ithink 7 exclamation marks take her word _____________________________________
shalini says: thx kart
_____________________________________
Ňŏ$4ä2_ŘẽǺp3r-G @ [MP] ReApEr-G says:
i never said i didn't
_____________________________________

A mind blowing twist perhaps? The viewers are gonna have to do that, for a movie that never made it :)

Tomorrow: 8 ish pm
Events: Negotiable.

The epic begins

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Had dinner today, like always :). Hehehe.. had fun. *grateful* Got crates of soft drinks under my bed haha... erm what else? hmm.. not sure ;)

However, i do miss my sister

Anyways, this post goes out to all those ppl who celebrate chinese new year and dont. LOL,everyone la *giggles*

From:


PS- People do change in time...why so random? for me to know. Have a cute new year.

Auditions Over, Now To CNY

Just came back from dota, after the auditions its 4 am now.it went ok. How are you?

I watching bleach ep 116.

Missing you,

Vik

Valentino Momento

Chocolate Mousse, Test tube (Trick or Treat), A Necklace, 6; 3:3 - Red : Pink.

My heart

Ms.Thye

Vikky Kong

Happy Valentines

Friday Night or Fright Night? LOL

Auditions in Nottingham, Semenyih,Near Asia Cafe, Subang Jaya Selangor

Wanna come?
Know the way? I know the way!!!
Got a way to get there? I know how, more than one ;)
Got space for a few others? Got space for many others, erm I think

LET ME KNOW :P Just come, give us a surprise. :P

Date: 16/02
Time: 9.00 PM

Unforgiving Grounds

Stoned with trials, you try
Yet, you fall...
Every time your crawl up
Back to that petty pace
No one knows,
No one cares

The ground is in its darkest colors
Damp with sweat and tears
Everything around is shattered
So what are you looking for?

Just like the flowers you step on
You don’t cry
Just like the wind on a hot summer’s day
You disappear without a trace
Just like me
You run out of words to speak

As trivial as it is,
Questions never seemed more meaningful
As time drowns you in apathy
For there are no real answers
Only questions …

My tears are the color of blood
My sweat, the soil
I find the scrutiny of pain
A worthy audition
So what am I looking for?

Loud ENOUGH?!!

Huh? what were you saying?

Jamming today, with Joshua Tan. Our new drummer with piercings from penang

"Here's a funny but true story from a social worker: she visited a client and he had condoms on his ears. She asked him why and he said he didn't want to get AIDS. She said, "You don't get AIDS that way." He said, "I don't want to get hearing AIDS."

Source

HAVE FUN KIDS

TOUCH IT!!!

Ain't just an apology...

Here we go again

A new round now,
An exchange of words,
Without much thought,
Thinking how it ought to
Clear somethings...

It doesn't take too long
before you notice,
you ain't going no where..
Till the words run of pace
And you see tears on her face

And i ain't gonna let that happen to you
I ain't gonna let you cry too long

Cause i'm sorry i said those things
i know your sorry you missed a few things
why worry? Let s start new...
The foundation's is simple..
There's nothing more to it
Nothing more than love

i don't care no more
Who's fault is it?
i dont care no more
How long it takes..

Cause...

And i ain't gonna let that happen to you
I ain't gonna let you cry too long

Cause i'm sorry i said those things
i know your sorry you missed a few things
Let's start new..
I love you, i love you, i love you...

Remember the rainbow..
Outnumber the glow,
Look for snowcoat,
When you feel too cold
Look for me
Look for me
Look for us..

Winter Semester 2007

So a week of the semester has passed... so far...

Mech 200

Go Dr. Gowda go, in one more class with him. He's leaving next sem already. This is THERMODYNAMICS. :)

Math 319

LINEAR ALGEBRA; I'm as usual excited to learn maths haha... Hmm..first time with this lecturer though, Mr.Thaya

Eng 102

Who is the lecturer? You guess...*hint: Fall Semester 2005. This looks like a lot of work now, research paper. Pick a topic and write a paper and two short essays about it. Hmm... ENGLISH COMPOSITION II

Let's Rock & Roll :)

Vikneshan

Blood Diamonds; Friend or Foe

Midnight movie: Blood Diamond
Time: 11.45p.m. - 2.15 a.m.
Location: TGV Cinemas at Hometown

A must watch.. thats what i can say for sure to all of you out there. How much power do you posses and how much does it affect the people around in the world? What kinda aftermath runs lose after your very actions... Questions after questions.. thats what this movie was to me.

As everything in this world, and God knows maybe the universe, everything is connected in ways we may never be able to apprehend in a our lifetimes. This movie was basically about how third world countries(namely African countries) are cruely and mercilessly used by first world countries to satisfy their demand and supply needs. A deadly cyle... which we do not know till what extent will it continue to hurt the people of the country. Moreover, it was about how this need, fueled other "tragedies" like terrorism, poverty and most importantly lost of young and potential great minds. In short, how diamonds, gold, oil and ivory turned the country into what it is right now.So what is this is place? To me, its living hell..see how your own kin kill each other for power, wealth and a ideology not worth fighting for.

Subsequently this rises a question from within me; How and why do we justify these actions that a party takes which may lead to greater and heavier consequences, rather than equal and opposite ? And is there an end to this "cycle"?

You may wonder how this applies to us in our lives, when we make decisions. Think about it, every action you take... what are these consequences...Is it worth it in the end? Is it the "right" way to go? Most likely a butterfly effect indeed. Renders me helpless thinking about it;Their countries sufferings. But hey, look at our country, we have our own problems too. So tell me watcha gonna do about it?

I cant help you with the answers to these questions only you can. So blood diamonds; Friend or Foe? You tell me... and what are blood diamonds? GO FIGURE

PS- Diamonds are womens best friends?hahhaa...sure, why not; bling- bang!

A new dawn

Staring feels like thinking
Like reaching for clouds of hope
The dawn is awakening
For secrets, for a change of heart,
Another rising within creates
Another open door down the lonely hallway

Passing by sheets of time
Finding out that the answers were,
Right in front of you all along

Oi tikus, Don't take 6 panadols,then "cata.." and "co..." anymore!!!

I ve started recording again :) yippee..today morning.

Oh yeah, happy full moon :)



A thousand apologies , for what you say? for the sudden urge to explain myself with pictures.

Phrases of Memories

A file that keeps a record of my msn personal messages during Summer 2006, just a reminder to myself... about some moments in my life...

The heart of every kid: Insouciance; White a shade of black

总空 - enamoredly perceived : The most out of your least

Smelly poo

Where did all the good food go?

The smiley shop: Use less sad ones get more happy ones.Works the other way too

All the fine prints in my life that i have missed out :S

The pink cement truck

the best days of my life

smells like sleep anyways

lipstick anyone?

What alphabet are you?

yes now i know :$

A piece of heaven on earth

Cut myself while playing with stupidity, why didnt i get hit by a truck or a kid riding a bicyle instead.

The "I" word

Intern Vikky!!!:P, silly is he...

the best days of my life

was napping with stolen candy underneath my armpits

"Don't speak"


Sometimes memories are all you have left of the past; live in 'em? , forget 'em? embrace 'em?
It's what that moulds us into what we are now...

*Hit Delete* - Let it be

These People Are Real

This impression has left me
With marks i dont understand
I thought i did
but it was far out of stand

The sounds in my head
Echoing in the halls of my heart
"I have seen them hurt"
"I have seen them break"

These people are real
And nothing stands tall for long
These people are surreal
Don't you think thats wrong
Thats makes somethings life long

Oh, what i ve done today
something happened on the way
Wounds come and go
And so does the pain but

The sounds in my head
Echoing in the halls of my heart
"I have seen them hurt"
"I have seen them break"

These people are real
Here to stay but not for long

We all live on a pace we dont comprehend
Trying not to get lost on the way

Awakening

Apparently being brave and getting rid of fear are two quite distinctive things...

I ...
Need not rid of fear to be brave
but
I could use fear to be brave

Being brave is knowing what is worth more, fear or reality of losing something to it.

Note to self: Optimism as a sixth or seventh sense, will prolly help sometimes.

Take care Vik...

It's never that easy

I fear again...

Sigh...

Songs

Fascinating how songs remind us of events in our lives huh? remind us about feelings we had back then, etc... was listening to some songs..realise how important they are to me...

We should all have songs to remember :)

When Fear Fades

When you run
And not think of falling

When you hit the throttle
And not stop

When you stand on the edge
And not budge

When you stare
And not blink

When you close your eyes
And breathe with ease

When you wait
And not grow old

When pain is a custom, fear slowly fades away

Thats when you learn to really see...

Die Hard

Still very much alive, dream on... arseholes

No more fullstops

Ermm..comebacks vs Pain drain??!

So, have you ever wondered how to make a come back in something, let me know k? Why? Erm... you ll find out.

After chicken pox, i get out of the house to get some exercise for the first time(football); Everything was going fine up till, 15 mins into the game... some jackass(nah kidding) kicked the ball on to the road.. so yeah, since i volunteered to keep today, i decided to pick it up.

There was a drain... 4 -5 feet below the field level.. (aka field on high ground) i jumped and somehow miss placed my right leg.. >_<" into the drain.. shit... Now you know why, people say its not good to have one foot in and the other out :). TADA... Now..a pretty dark red tattoo... all over my right leg.

Wonder what i ll do in college...hmm..

The Varicella Tragedy

My posts, have been lacking in words, cause they seem alien to me.

" The Varicella Tragedy".

Thanks

Thx, for the laugh kid whoever you are, wont forget it

I M SUPERMAN

Currently listening to:

Butch walker : Maybe it's just me

Fall Semester 2006

This is roughly what the courses and subjects are ;

Differential Equations 353

It's Daniel Chew again, third semester with him. He's okay. Lets see how this one goes.

Vector Mechanics (Dynamics) 274

Mr. Gowda, lol had some trouble with his accent at first now stuff is ok. Looking forward. Got assignments already.

CSCI 251

This one is a programming course, this part time lecturer and professional programmer, mr.vincent is teaching. I m kinda looking forward to learning C since i have been waiting a while to understand more about how softwares work. even though i know i can find out on my own but now it will be more fun.

Econs 202 (microecons)

Ms. Lim. Currently having some difficulties with the accent but doing ok other than that. First elective subject in after my first semester, which was a year ago.

PS - sister has chickenpox, and i m scratching while blogging this...wonder whether i m infected. LOL...vaccine? maybe too late

Fall Semester 2006

Two days overused...(long story) lol, now i m tired.

Its a year since i joined ADP now, i m not sure what i feel, as usual. try using empathy.

My younger sister has chicken pox...i havent got it , sure die..just wondering when i m gonna get it. If i m gonna get it the earlier the better.

My sister is going back to Ukraine, prasad and shareen to Russia.

My grandmother s sister is in the hospital.

I have got no idea what i m doing.

Vik

Turtled madness...

Car turned turtle over the road at noon in town, which crazy nutcase?...

SHiaT!!! Anand...wth... Corner at 80 km/h , JJ and rudy sound effects: Gen 2 come and hentam...

>_<" he's ok...thank God... and he s cousin also.

Photograms

Changing, there s this thing about me
The smile in my childhood pictures
The tickle in my laughter
All slowly, changing

All thats left,an empty mask
White turning red then black
Feeling torn within
My pandora box kept safely in my arms
Holding it all in
Its fighting for a way out
Leaving an emptyness that takes all of me away

All this that i feel about you now
Feels so beautiful when i pretend you do to
but my reality, isn't as happy
All the things that once lit my heart,
Now somehow dim away as hope slips away

I m calling out
I m running out of air to breathe
I shout out for help
Knowing no one can
or there s nothing i can do
Something s dying out

I dont want to be an echo
A passer by
I wont be just a scratch
Not a scar
Just reasons to smile

I m calling out
I m running out of air to breathe
I shout out for help
Knowing no one can help
or there s nothing i can do
Something s dying out
And its not my say

Not Just Another John Doe

My lip is finally healing, to me a miracle. I now can sing Aerosmith songs without bleeding. Anyways, yesterday after studying for my Maths test which was going to be at 8 o’clock in the morning on the next day. So yeah, I went to the room and went online to check my current standings. Pala saw what I was doing and so he wanted to check his too. Then I asked him, how did he get URL if he forgot cause I just guessed the URL. He said google can find anything, even me, he asked me to type my name and see. One of those, I m pretty sure kinda thing, since he didn’t actually know. So I keyed “Vikneshan Sundaralingam on my google toolbar thingy… in a few seconds: “ Vikneshan A/L Sundaralingam 741 Jalan RJ 1/17 Taman Rasah Jaya” I was like WTH… wanna know more??

Guess what sites were this?… PLKN(Program Latihan Khidmat Negara) in English, National Service. I was one of those “lucky”( so the government claims) to be selected. Better not go there, I think you can guess how I felt like during NS but if you can’t please feel free to refer to my previous blog. What is wrong with these people, It is the ministry of defense and the leave information like this accessible to the public. Even though I know I m not like the most wanted or anything but still why make it so easy for someone who wants to maybe assassinate me or frame me for something. But that’s not the point here, the point is how responsible can the government be for keeping information like that openly in the net. This has been there for almost two years already. The basic albeit important information like IC Numbers and addresses of those NS trainees. To think JKN is under the ministry of defense omg… scary, I wonder how they would be able to handle cyber threats if small things like this could pass unnoticed. For your information, this documents are just kept as text that readily accessible to anyone who has at part of your name. Pala and I plan to report this to the press. To others, it may seem like something negligible, but not us haha… both of us wanna have a piece of the Ministry. Suggestions? Take em’ off the net and get your system sorted out.

Even more surprising some colleges/ universities do the same thing. OMG... all information displayed including major etc. Will save the details till it really matters, since i dont want to condemn anyone else.

Today, guess what I m doing now? I m actually locked outside the house cause I didn’t listen to my mum when she asked me to bring the keys along with me to Subang Jaya. I have one more paper on Friday , today is Tuesday. I m using my laptop with two hours left on the laptop battery cause I didn’t charge it. Ain’t I silly :P I thought my sister would be at home, but she went to Aileen’s place haha… you know what they say happens when you assume. Sigh, this past few weeks have the hardest times of my life.

Three and a half hours later the animal get in the house and haves a GREAT day.

I’m no John Doe even if I want to be at times,
Vikky.

Kiss My Torn Lip

My nights are red,
My mornings painted white,
All the visible wounds all patched up
Ready for a repeat

I m always looking for a temporary cure,
The dark circles around my eyes,
Feeling the cold drops of tears washing my face clean
I want to smile but i know i ll bleed
"Some people" do not heed
I want to smell and feel clean
But the blood is tainted on my shirts
All of them;

My nights are colorless
My mornings;
I don't want to wake up

It feels like i'm choking myself
All these feelings, i thought i would want
I m confused, i m dazzed
I don't understand whats going on inside of me
Always looking for a cure
So you wont have to but i can't

I wished you would listen
Then you would stop our bleeding
Give me the only "cure"
Give me a chance to live
Heal my tainted torn lip

Prose to Poetry

A hanging toe nail? a headache? ahahaha nothing is gonna stop me, well almost nothing.

ehehe... the title is my post really, its a secret.

Title for ponder...

feelings; tainted flammable paintings on a torn brown canvas with a dead painter.

What does this mean?

Pre Physics Test Dilema: A story of bidding for an hour of company

All you need to not remember what u have read before the test...

Mainly about how a guy and gal was fighting for me to sit next to them. Not perasaan or anything but just blogging today so i can remember the funniest pre physics test atmosphere i have gone through.

Not the exact story but roughly what happened.

All started with victor,

Victor(clubber going on betting person going on clean) : Hey Vikky sit next to me. Here here..

Me: Erm, ok... where? next to you? lol...

Victor: yeah...

Me: (Sat down on the table next to the one he was pointing) here la.

Victor sat next to me and asked teddy to sit on his righthand side.

Ganesh(roomie/bassist/duno what else): Here la Vikky...

Mawar: Sini sini ( pointing underneath the desk)

Me: Huh... (closing my ears d)

All of a sudden,

Ting ting: here la sit next to me and petrina( i carry her bag lol)

Victor: Woi, u go i smack ur ass..

Me: :(

Victor Vs Ting Ting (ding!ding! round:1)

Victor: U go there Andy(her bf) will get angry...

Me: Who? (trying to not help)

Mugilan(firestarter): U d prefer victor rather than ting ting?

Me: ... (speechless)

More gay comments from mugi... not sure what.

12 years friends already and not wondering why lol...

Ganesh: Hey sit here la vikky!!

Mawar writes something on a piece of paper and passes it to ganesh.

Banner madness

Mawar and Ganesh: Come here la vikky ( holding their paper made banner with "Viky we love you! on it)

Houston we have a problem

Intermission : (hehhehe for fun)

Ganesh: i offer you my arse...

Me: walao...

Ting ting: ya la u wan arsehole huh?!!

Me: O_O (woah emoticon)

Ganesh: i ll be your pet monkey...

Me: already.. tat... (or something like that, cant really remember what i said)

Victor: Why?! U wanna eat his bananas?!

Victor and Ting ting give each other the looks, i was getting pretty scared(actually just entertained)...

Me: I feel like i m kindergarden only with a lot of adult stuff.

Adrian( funny indonesia with his accent and sheepish smile) : You go there sit there la... u gay or wat.

Me: Victor i go sit there huh?

Victor: Like that la.. i tell ___ HUH?

Me: Ok sitting there... (puzzled with what that has just happened)

Victor merajuk lol...

The test starts

Sorry if i offended anyone today.

All along, I think i was sitting with the gal who was eating ice cream and watching me quietly.

KNOWING HOW TO BATHE

Don't roll ur eyes, i know how to bathe !!! At least i think i do... well i scrub behind everywhere ;o)

Got pros and cons? i m not too sure myself. Hence the post. Lets see how many can i come up with. :) WARNING: This post maybe totally pointless to most of you so think first before reading.

PROS

1. Knowledge is power : ermm.. i know how to bathe?
2. New accesories: The back of my ears now feel like brand new
3. World peace: I smell nicer hehehe... better than usual ;)
4. JBA's problem: I waste more water
5. Bragging rights: I can tell my four year old cousin :)
6. My neighbours kids nightmare: It is actually more bathing then singing, dancing and etc. as compared to the 10 % bathing and 90 % for others. (dont ask)

hmm... nothing much so far... :S

CONS
1. Lack of sleep: I don't sleep as much as i normally do in the toilet
2. Different topic altogether : brushing teeth
3. Doesn't apply to washing clothes, however easy it may seem.
4. Bathing frequency remains a constant.
5. World crisis: I feel too clean sometimes( feels like not wearing undies if u were wondering)
6.Unrelated: still need to get water at night. (whos complaining i have got squishy to keep me company)


I would like to thank all the "people" that made my bathing experience what it is today.(che wah like grammy's)

PS- will update from time to time. Never know whethers its bathing or something else. Just like what i thought what underwears were for when i was a kid and refused to wear it. For more info, just ask me. Didnt say i ll tell u though.

Just incase you were wondering why i feel reluctant to bathe... well, u know when u were a kid? and u have had a fun, dirty day? and your parents call u in to bathe eat etc? yeah... thats prolly what i feel . I wish the days never end but thats just me... a kid, only urs.




With big smile...

La

I like everything about you and more. Thanks for today.

Vik

I wish...

As i walk down the beach
i watch the sun set
and street lights turn on
With the sun in their background
The birds fly away
All i can think of is you

The last time i listened to your voice
Was the last time, i felt this way
On the phone, you sound mesmerizing
something about your voice
i lose myself in it

As i run through that empty street in the dark
Looking back occasionally
With the songs u sang to me in my head
As i watch the houses and the ppl in it
I sit alone in the room with my eyes closed
All i can think of is you


I cant help thinking,
What would i do when u leave?
Holding on is as hard as letting go
Where ever you go
I ll be here, waiting
For the lights to be turned on

This pretending seems so real,
yet i feel so insecure
This is what that gives it away
This insecurity, the longing for more

There are some words i wish not
To be uttered on me
I wish ...
I wish for you

Msg mania

Woke up at 9... (late), went to uncle's for some prayers. Coincidentally, it was sivacitapas birthday also. so yeah wished him.

Heard of msg mania? well today prasad told me about RM 1 for 1000 msgs up to 11.59 so i was like wth!!! lol...
I thought for a lil while and said "wth, no need. It wasnt worth it. I don't know about u but these were my reasons".

1. I wouldnt wanna spend more time on the phone... lol
2. I wouldnt wanna jam up the maxis blardy networks like how it happened to me. I couldnt send message at one time cause there was a sudden surge of messages directed inwards.
3. RM 1 is more or less plenty for a day.
4. being greedy never helped most ppl in most ways. (see what i m getting at?)
5. Something smelled fishy ( i like fishes)
6. Its four in the morning... now!!!

So what do you think? ... (1000 msgs? i know it would have been a better choice to have done otherwise but this is what i have chose.There's no turning back)

PS: Apology to the pretty pretty... maiden whom i burned her credit for 1000 msgs... =) Purely unintentional.*angel emoticon from msn messenger*

Progressing in a direction... we all are

The skeptical become more skeptical;losing faith, the believers believe more strongly; growing more certain. Whats true and what is not? i don't know. Albeit being almost certain about reasons behind all the "petty" thoughts in the earlier stages of life. I know face some sort of blues. Maybe it's hormonal... or maybe its something more serious. I m beginning to think or see (which one i m not sure) how things that were fed to my mind in the earlier stages of my life are flawed.i.e. Human in many ways...

One of them; Religion. I do still strongly believe in a divine power that created all. For so many things to happen all at once... just by a mere coincidence seems to be hard to believe and disturbing.If it was, what before the big bang?. I choose to believe based on my instincts that God is ever existing. Religion on the other hand, has shown its many flaws. Religion in the hands of humanity at least.. has shown its multi-sideness. Inequality, hypocritical ideas and oppression are some of the clear ones. I think i need not present examples as my purpose is not to condemn any religion or religion but just to share my thoughts. I think over the years religion has been changed, tailored to biasly profit some sides over the years in history.I'm not saying it was never true or anything. Over the years, Religion has given life some meaning... The question: Is the reason all made to make life more meaningful and less depressing? I m sorry if i offended anyone but please keep in mind this is just a thought. I think this is the reason i have become less attached to previous reasons, principles and feelings.

Absurdism.

Reviewed =) sorry about the grammartical errors(typos, etc)

What goes around comes around?

Age:1 ; pester mum for milk

Age:2; pester parents for toys

(I m sure u see where this is goin')

Age:3; sisters for dresses

Age:4; sisters for hairband

Age:5; parents for more toys

Age: 6; no kindergarden

Age: 7; a bike

Age: 8; unlimited tv watching

Age:9; bedtime more than my age

Age:10;a boyfriend

Age:11; a girlfriend, convince dad not to send me for guitar classes

Age:12; Any friend and a holiday

Age:13; Anything but pimples

Age:14; Height

Age:15; Ask dad to get me more guitars

Age:16; Sleep with them

Age:17; want more guitars to sleep with, and more time to sleep...

Age:18; Want to reverse and restart again but i know i cant.

PS- Also Age:18; Mum pesters me to get haircut!!! lol

What goes around comes around?! you tell me... what a perfect cycle

Noah's Ark

What could you have learned from it?

Illustrations:
Noah's Ark 1

Noah's Ark 2

Noah's Ark 3

ONE: Don't miss the boat.
TWO: Remember that we are all in the same boat.
THREE: Plan ahead. It wasn't raining when Noah built the Ark.
FOUR: Stay fit. When you're 60 years old, someone may ask you to do
something really big.
FIVE: Don't listen to critics; just get on with the job that needs to
be
done.
SIX: Build your future on high ground.
SEVEN: For safety's sake, travel in pairs.
EIGHT: Speed isn't always an advantage. The snails were on board with
the
cheetahs.
NINE: When you're stressed, float awhile.
TEN: Remember, the Ark was built by amateurs; the Titanic by
professionals.
ELEVEN: No matter the storm, when you are with God, there's always a
rainbow waiting.

Source: Mail from dad =)

Another S M (sunday morning duh!!! what did you think?)

My dad did my laundry!!!yay!!! =) haha... which also contradicts with his and my mum's statement that its high time i do my own laundry, hehe. Parents! lol. Also had a blood check today. =)? =(?

Have you ever felt like you are in your body with two different minds? well thats how i m feeling now... i m not really sure how to describe it, its like i m in a dream with control of the first half of any action that i make. The follow through is "free-fall". aiya enough of yapping i duno how on earth am i gonna describe it or cure it for that matter...anyone with hints please let me know.

Tomorrow: (i mean today as i m to lazy to hit backspace i shall continue) there band practice, we are performing in kgv for an els function. Not too sure about the details but i'm looking forward for it.

Summary:

Name: Vikneshan
Status:drunk, drugged,et al
Severity: Unknown
Blood group: hot hot HOT!!!(yes perasaan case)
Next stop: Luna (cit)^-1 y


YES U R RIGHT... full of crap, nonsense, ... speechless and still ranting

Sunday morning

Another week has passed, it still doesnt feel that right but it feels much better than it used to be. Got test coming up on friday mostly, i think. On the contrary, i have been a bit lazy but will change.

Sitting here in front of the pc doing laundry listening to music (mom decided its HIGH TIME i do it myself)*train-get to me* wondering, what s gonna happen to me next? To me, this week was one weird week. Even more than the "normal" ones in which Ms.Ng calls me jellyfish. Argh... what the heck lets talk about all the lectures. Mr. Joshua s still the same and Mr.Loh just hit me in class!!! o_O"... To explain the third law of newton(every action has an opposite and equal reaction). It was someone else.. i would have volunteered to give him a fedback/a reaction- an opposite and equal one! aiya ... its cool dont worry. He s a nice lecture, hopefully.

OH yeah, One good thing about staying near coll is i only leave ten minutes before class and wrestle with the lock cause i cant get it to open without get pissed. Normally i take five mins, so its leaving 5 mins before class.

Also it rained when pala and i went to get some water from the watershop near coll. We were stuck there for a while and then decided to get back wet... and sleeping. Watched some gals play pool, i mean i watched some gals play pool. Song then: Bon jovi - Thank you for loving me.

Overall a good week, i guess. Have two new songs, one recorded a draft adee("missing"), the other titled "V.I.P"(Valentine in presence) still needs work but i really like the song. Well its mine. +_+ *john mayer - come back to bed*

HAD A VALENTINE!!! YAY...SORTA...HEHE, Ms.Oh lala

PS
I think i wanna name this week naming viky week X ( X=1,2,3...) whY? guess why?

Room gloom?

I m not so sure that staying somewhere is better than travelling now. Its a sunday night turning monday today, going back coll tomorrow. What was staying in a room with pala like? It was ok, we watched football and wrestling, talked crap throughout, speculated how long till we killed each other, and many more absurd stuff.

I still think travelling is better, i get to do more... walking!!! kidding more people to look at. Maybe i need some getting used to thats all. Maybe i dont like being so close to coll. Maybe... I ll find out.

PS - The room needs repainting

Moving in/out

Haha... moving in or is it moving out. I think its both. Got a room right in front of college, sharing it with pala. Wonder what it's gonna be like.

Ending or begining?

Seemingly permant but only temporarily: Life. Sometimes we forget the fundamentals of life, birth and death. Well at least for life in this world.

Picked my father up from the railway station. He went to visit his friends grave who just passed away due to bone marrow cancer. Its weird i guess, actually going through a friends death. For, it actually reminds you about your ending.

Also, while waiting at the train station. I had my share of the atmosphere; the gloomy, sad and quiet air around the people there. They had to go back, the end of their reunion for cny. Kinda depressing but enlightning at the same time.

Subsequently, it and the other deaths happening around me is changing the way i think. I m not too sure how though... its like a growing shadow becoming more significant to me with very little understanding of it. I'm growing scared ... its slowly manifesting, taking me away. The expiry date doesnt worry me just whats after it.

Cheese New Year!!! (when u say it fast it sounds something like this)

Ain't celebrating much this year, just the eating portion cause granpa left us. Anyways, all cool. Food is there , hols here, and family. Anxious to see what the "dog year" holds for all of us.

Happy Chinese New Year or Cheese New Year!!! Many merry returns by the end of the celebration aight? Have fun people.

Love,

Vik

be right back? ya right

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/flash/sheblockedme.html

Winter 2006 with Smileys

WINTER 2006.

This semester started out with a boggling 140 new people considering it’s ADP we are talking about. Not much of a difference though, just congested corridors, noisy mornings and new faces. Only taking three subjects this semester because I decided to not over-work myself with three science subjects after being persuaded by Pala(not blaming him). Here’s a preliminary commentary on some elements of the semester.

Maths 172

Mr. Joshua teaches this course. Last semester, I heard a lot of warnings about Joshua and how he teaches…etc. So far not bad, don’t know what’s gonna happen next though. He’s a Chinese guy aged 26 or something with a PHD in maths with jokes that seem somewhat “adult-like” even for adults and mostly carrying very little pertinenece with the topic at hand. However, seems like fun… I hope it will be.

Currently:

Chem 106

Hmm…shoulder pads, a coat, a dress, amethyst-crystal band on her hand and eccentric glasses: the one and only “Ms” Ng is the lecture for this course. Notice the Ms in quotation marks? Ya well it’s because she’s married but she doesn’t wanna be addressed as Mrs for some reason(I m sure you can guess why).

First day of class appears to be less offensive than the days after that. I dunno whether she is doing this on purpose or not; She mistakes me as Isa (Vikn ‘esha’ n prolly that’s why) and then she says this : “ Sorry, must be the blood mix, you look more Malay than both of them”. Not the first time… that’s why I’m worried. I think she targets her victims, all four boys … I tell you… she is like a hungry predator (except she hunts for a different kinda food – the joy of embarrassing others). Victor, Syabil and I all got the “honors” of cleaning the whiteboard… it’s not like we had a choice. Mostly poor Syabil, getting bombarded with “shape ur S’es properly” s every two minutes just because he wrote his “S” wrongly on a form. Sigh…

Anyways, its fun!!! Cause I think I know she’s a nice lecture… YES SHE IS!!! (me convincing myself). Nah just kidding, she is.

PS- Solvation/Hydration is also Aqua-ing

Phy 211

Mr. Loh seems like a good guy… *but looks can be deceiving* so I’ll leave a lil space for reservations… Everyone in class is so quiet especially when he asks something, dunno why.

I’m looking forward to learning more stuff even though it seems like there is very little to write about. Remember *… *?

Carol like no other

This is what i get if i write at 3am with nothing else but this in mind.


Tonight my heart's dressed in white
No one hears me whining
No one but the wine i'm holding
My senses are hazed and confused
Cause I can't clear my mind from the thoughts of time
I look for memories of you that still cling tight
I know I still feel and emptyness that makes me fight
I need an excuse, I need it fast
I need one to stop the voices in my head from reveberating

This is the time i wonder what you're doing
This is the time i wait for you to come home, oh...

I wish you well
Where ever you are
I'm thinking of you right now
Will always
Coz i know you're worth more than you are

I dunno why i'm writing this song
but i guess i'm trying to fix the void
With words proliferating out of my head
Creating a rut that never really ends
A stir, which doesn't need an end.

Tonight my heart's dressed in white
My mind creates its own plights
The broken glass on the floor
Calling me a coward
Which now i don't doubt i'm
For i fear what lies ahead of us
I just need an excuse, i need it fast
To stop your picture from fading away.

I wish you well
Where ever you are
I know now what this is for
Good night and Merry Christmas.

Quotation of The Day

" True friends can only be found in hospitals and prisons", {Some spanish drama person}

Where else? :

1. Cyber cafes


Attitude: