If...

If you woke up this morning              
with more health than illness,           
you are more blessed than the            
million who won't survive the week.      
                                                    
If you have never experienced the danger of battle,
the loneliness of imprisonment,
the agony of torture or the pangs of starvation,
you are ahead of 20 million people around the world.
                                                    
If you attend a meeting in the place of worship,
without fear of harassment,              
arrest, torture, or death,               
you are more blessed than almost         
three billion people in the world.       
                                                    
                                                    
If you have food in your refrigerator,
clothes on your back,
a roof over your head and a place to sleep,
you are richer than 75% of this world.
                                                    
If you have money in the bank,           
in your wallet, and spare change         
in a dish someplace, you are among       
the top 8% of the world's wealthy.                                         
                                                 
If you hold up your head with a smile    
on your face and are truly thankful,     
you are blessed because the majority can,
but most do not.                         
                                                    
If you can hold someone's hand,
hug them or even touch them on the shoulder,
you are blessed because you can offer God's healing touch.
                                                    
If you can read this message,            
you are more blessed than over           
two billion people in the world          
that cannot read anything at all.        
                                                    
You are so blessed in ways  
we may never even know.

006? haha

Summary: The master of sleep walking and dressing is back in town.

What happened:

my mum, opens my door and just looks at me... shit! i m late for college. I looked at the clock... shit its 6... oh my... looked at my phone at got even more dazzed. Got into the toilet, Got out, and got changed. And then it all kicked in... how is "000" six o'clock?


What was blurly buzzing in my head:

Was reading this book for english, titled ethics. WAs SO sleepy that i thought i would take a nap and continue reading later>>> zZz>>>

my mum, opens my door and just looks at me... shit! i m late for college. Went straight outside to
look at the clock which showed 12.30(the clocks in my house are half an hour fast) , i read it as 6
then 12.30... i was sceptical and called the clock kaput,* my sister and mum still looking at me
wondering what am i doing*What do you think i m doing?

i m GETTING READY FOR SCHOOL!. I doubled checked with my hp which showed 0.03...and thought
hmmm thats 6.03? ok maybe la; for that particular moment i really thought that all 000 s i ... (ya
right) were six o'clocks. WHy did i wake up late? oh ya... I forgot to turn the alarm on before sleeping.

Got into the toilet didnt think much, besides for the decision making of not taking my bath even though i had slept without taking one. Lets put it this way, i didnt have the time and it would only mean two whole days without bathing. Got out, and got dressed. It was then and only then it all kicked in. "How was '000', six oclock?"

Really embarassing... even said my good mornings to a few people.

Mum goes back to sleep, followed by my sister and i m going now. GOOD NIGHT!!!

Used to this whole "routine" when i was little.

its 1.11 am now... not 7 11, gtg sleep.

Slurpeeing

moon so bright, night so fine
keep your slurpee here in mine
It will keep you dreaming...

i want to spend my lifetime drinking slurpee
if that is all in life i ever do

yeah yeah whatever...(i hope no one sues me for this so called parody)

2-3 months ago i knocked somebody's car. HIT AND RUN, worrr!!!. Sorry dude or dudette. Still waiting for the police, since Malaysia Police sometimes "will" come only after eight months("nice" people huh, let you have fun first). I was buying slurpee for my sister. Ever since, i had phobia of buying slurpee.

TODAY, I finally managed to overcome the phobia, i jumped into the car... not really i was closing my ears cause my sister was nagging at me, my mum asleep. So, with the full moon shining brightly as my witness, i bought the slurpee...

Nope not yet finish, The machine wasnt working so it was technically a red colored drink but i had to get my trophy! And i didnt know i didnt like asam slurpee up to now.

Today asam, tomorrow whats that green thing and the blue one?

Dreaming In Yellow

Nous vivons dans les rêves-"we live in dreams"

Didn't see the point of a title...

My phlegms still there don't know how much longer i have to have it. Today went something like this. First achievement of the day, i found out that the jacket i was wearing every morning has two extra pockets. Got into the 638am train where i sat in front of this blindman, whom i have seen a number of times in central. He was smilling, i was wondering whether it was me or what. Really respect the guys strength to carry on. In contrast to our usual giving up, he was very much unlike "us".

I also had flashes of my dream which i could remember and was really scary and bothering. I was in a house, which i think is mine. It was like haunted by ghosts but not sure how many. I think there were three. They kept trying to scare me away , hurting me and chasing me around but i didnt budge , i just (now i think there is a suitable title) fought and took the torment. Then there was a sudden switch of settings. I was in a bigger building with many people in it. The whole building didnt have electricity and everyone had the same spooked facial expression as though something bad was going to happen. A natural disaster; an earthquake? a tornado? i'm not too sure myself.

In a blink with a sudden stop , everything went berserk the building almost instantly was collapsing with metal pieces sticking out. I was on the half which wasnt. I saw this woman nearby me, her clothing got stuck to a nail(not sure) on the other half and she got drag a long with it. I tried to save her... i tried but couldnt i was stunned when i thought too myself she's gonna die. Then there's this guy who saved her. I was just staring, in disbelief. Slowly everything faded away... And i felt a morning headache and body ache.

Shit, i woke up pretty late but the day turned out ok. It turned out that i didnt have to pass up my engineering homework and my english teacher was reasonably nice. Not to miss out the company i had during the class, "digital company". IT WAS A YELLOW DAY... not on the surface but it's colors.


Click here ...
DREAMING in YEL LOW

just my kinda day

An Epitome of Today



Thick, sticky, stringy
Sluggish
i m a bag of phlegm
green everywhere
i'm broken
outside and the insides
suffocation taunting me, looking but not killing
yet,i broke a lot of other things
i managed to mend some
but not enough
i hurt many
but please very little
work witheld by
in hope i'm lost

1. have got phlegm stuck in my airways- i hope the sewers don't die
2. tried to finish my homework, sat three hours straight but could i was doing mistakes everywhere
3. i think i broke something in my back, i'm wheezing in pain.
4. i was really rude throughtout the day, i m sorry. Appa, amma, and everyone else.
   
5. 
   
6. 
   
7. 
   
8. i cant breathe properly.
9. i'm losing hope
   
10. worst of all, all my sorry ammo has been used up for the day or maybe even two days.
    

i dunno what to do but i know tomorrow will be a better day, i pray. I pray but i'm losing faith. i need help.

S***y(S***y: shh... u gonna get hit dude!)

Ta DA!

hmm... interesting, just trying out stuff

Unanswered answers

LOOK OUT!

all the reasons, not answers
that's what i have
i look for more but
end up finding less
my mind seems to drift away
in funny looking circles

now i'm lost
and i'm looking for numbers
can't find yours anywhere
did i miss place you somewhere?
or did you go by yourself?

Help me,
look for myself

look out! look out!
look out! look out!
look out for me
pretend! pretend!
pretend! pretend!
you don't see me

less is more, you said
but do you really know how?
cause i think i do
and your not living it
you're not lost
you're just lying

i can't really tell anyhow
you are not saying anything
you're going undercover
my feelings for your blanket
tonight..

Help me,
or torch me

look out! look out!
look out! look out!
look out for me
pretend! pretend!
pretend! pretend!
you don't see me

you are screaming at me
but i can't make out the words
i ask you but i don't get the answers
i look at you but i don't see you
i really wanna understand you
but you don't wanna let me in
you are swerving again

look out! look out!
look out! look out!
look out for me
pretend! pretend!
pretend! pretend!
you don't love me

He PonderS

Like every tree stands on its own
Reaching for the sky, i stand alone
With no one else all by myself
I stand alone
All by myself, i stand alone



something i still remember from when i was a little kid, from the quest for camelot.
We choose to remember things, i chose this dunno why.